Didn’t think it would all come rushing back
Burn like I laid my bare skin on train tracks
Maybe if I hadn’t continued my search
Never finding the information I sought
Until today.
Until today.
I was there when it happened,
But to see it recounted for all the world to know my pain
Or how happy that made you both.
You might not have even considered the me part of the equation in your story retelling;
“How romantic.”
“How romantic.”
Were I a cat, I would have died long ago…
For your movements call my name and you don’t even intend for them to.
You’re happy, I’m happy, but I didn’t want you to be.
I wanted my absence to crush your soul, as you crushed mine
Hoped she would see you for who you were and decide it wasn’t worth it.
I stood outside our home helping someone you damaged,
While you inside “bent down and kissed her hand.”
Unveiling your first meeting, and the day I lost you forever…
So I let you go now
God I hope I let you go now.
bensbitterblog said:
Poet! Do you know it? Painful journey there.
Sonya said:
Yeah, it was stupid. I wrote it months and months ago.
bensbitterblog said:
Was it about something real or just something you came up with in your brain?
Sonya said:
It was real.
bensbitterblog said:
Real bitter.
Sonya said:
Exactly.
viveka said:
You did a good job, with your feelings here … and I don’t think it was stupid – it was something you had inside you that wanted to get out. Hearty and soul pain is terrible.
Sonya said:
Thank you (I meant stupid to go looking, I meant to clarify oops).
Libby Sawyer said:
Hello! I nominated you for a Super Sweet Blogging Award! I couldn’t find a contact page, so I left this here. Hope that’s okay! You can see the rules here:
http://thelittledabbler.wordpress.com/2013/07/01/super-sweet-blogging-award/
Congratulations!
Sonya said:
Thank you so much! That is really awesome (and I don’t think I have a contact page, but I have no idea).
🙂